Many journalers have been making little lists lately, so that they can get on "just Me"'s Is That a Fact list. So I wanna be on it too. I don't mind being mostly bald. I don't mind being mostly gray. I love grape jelly on home-made hamburgers. I can curl my tongue. I'm unhappy about my mortality. My balls have never gotten me in more trouble that my head can get me out of. CNN and Headline News are my favorite TV shows. To Hell and Back was my favorite show when I was younger and able to have heros. Presently I have no favorite shows. I have no heros, either, and I wish that I could have at least one. I have a vein in my right hand that parallels a tendon, so that if I move my hand just right, the vein jumps from one side to the other. I have been near death twice from heart attacks, but I'm not really afraid of the pain of dying... only the loss of not getting to do everything that I want to do. I'm damned near fifty-two and I still occasionally have pimples. I'm extremely lazy for an ambitious person. I'm not that ambitious... I just dream a lot that I am. Some of my dreams are in color, some black-and-white. I have only been truly in love once... for the last sixteen years. I wish that I had the time back that I wasted drinking. I like both cats and dogs, but I don't really want to "own" any more of them, or even the ones that I got right now. I'm thinking about getting my left ear pierced again and wearing a hoop along with the diamond. I don't understand a lot of my thoughts. I recycle aluminum cans, but nobody else in my family wants to. I've sincerely tried to quit smoking over a hundred times in the last ten years. That last one bothers me a lot... constantly. I enjoy Pink Floyd and Manneheim Steamroller. I want to be able to play my guitar a whole lot better than I can. I have a nervous thing, I'm always jiggling my leg. I have tinnitis, and I can almost make out voices and songs sometimes. Many people don't understand my sense of humor until they really get to know me... and many times they are so put off they don't get to know me. Many people who understand my sense of humor don't like it. Most of my close friends are female. I have been saying that I'm going to lose thirty pounds for the last five years, and I haven't done it yet. 31 January 1998 My earliest memory was when I was 2 or 2 1/2 years old in Enid. There was a tornado, and my hand got caught in the screen door as I was running inside. I have several other memories from that period... Mom and some aunts were making birds out of little plastic strips... cousin Errol (or someone else...) sat in a red ant den... Dad was disciplining Errol (supposedly) in the garage, Errol was screaming and dad was whacking his own hand with the belt... I have seen six or eight tornadoes. They are really neat, as long as they aren't killing people. I like weather that is interesting. I don't like more than one clear, bright day in a row, I get bored. I can freely dislocate my shoulders and my wrists. And put them back, of course. Never had a mishap doing that. I've only had two dogs, and they both lived seventeen years. I can "pop" almost every joint in my body. I used to be able to whistle pretty damned good, until I split my lip in a car wreck in 1969. Now I can't. I'm looking forward to getting older gracefully. Or maybe clumsily. Hell, I don't care how I do it, as long as it doesn't hurt too much. My favorite numbers: 3, 5, 7. Not necessarily in that order. Favorite ice cream: mint chocolate chip, generally. Goo-Goo Cluster, but I've only had that once. Favorite color: blue, maybe. Favorite song of all time: House of the Rising Sun, by The Animals Favorite punctuation mark... guess. Favorite granddaughter... Lacee. Favorite pants... Levi's 501's. I've never knowlingly told a lie of any consequence. Thursday, 05 February, 1998 I'm not afraid of bugs or snakes, but I don't eat them. I'm afraid of flying. I was made into a helicopter medic in the army, but I never have flown in a helicopter, and I never will, either. I spent a lot of time drinking with helicopter pilots, they're all fucking crazy. I'm afraid of heights. Karen and I went to the Royal Gorge in Colorado, and I had to walk across the bridge in the middle with my eyes mostly closed, hanging onto Karen's hand all of the way. I love to ski but I don't, because to get to the top of the mountain, you have to ride a ski lift. Ski lifts go high up in the air... the psychic energy that I picked up joyfully skiing down the mountain is more than depleted by going up. I had some accessory teeth that looked like fangs before I went into the first grade. They were in front of my front teeth, and they were removed by a dentist. I don't remember anything about it. I can't be hypnotized. The first time it was tried on me was by a dentist in Enid when I was about ten. He thought he had me under and started drilling on my teeth. I let him know really quick. I was baptized in both the xian and catholic churches before I realized that I was an atheist. I have been known to paint a fingernail or two, just for effect. Even when I had hair, I wasn't too concerned about it. I sometimes grind my teeth when I sleep. Karen says that I snore, but then she says that she doesn't, and she does, so she will lie about stuff like that. So I probably don't. I am extremely jealous of people who can go to sleep quickly. I was a voracious reader until I got my first computer. I did not live in a house with a TV set until I was twenty-five.

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