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Karen took her pill at 08:00 and went back to sleep until 12:00, when her brother Chuck called... then she went back to sleep for about an hour. After that I got her up into her recliner and she slept there for a while, and then Jan came over.

She went to sleep again, and I woke her up a little later, reminding her that she wanted McDonalds... so she and Jan sent me to McDonalds for some fish sandwiches.... and I got me a cheeseburger.

They did pretty well, but about two hours I threw up the cheeseburger.... it was good, and I ate the whole thing, and that was more than I've eaten in weeks, heh. So my stomach revolted.

she had a steady stream of visitors after than... she's so happy to see people, but she gets tired out so easily... she spends about eighteen hours a day sleeping.

A number of years ago, we decided together that our love was so great that if either of us died, the other one would commit suicide.

Well, she decided to reneg on that promise after I survived my first coronary... and I will, after seventeen years, reneg on it now.

Heh... I outlasted her.

And I don't feel good about that at all.

I wanted to go first... that way I wouldn't have to put up with the grief.

I'm just so happy to see her being happy and pain-free... the latter is very unusual in this type of cancer, and I hope that it continues. She deserves an easy death, if anyone ever does.

Fuck cancer. Just fuck it.