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I went to work at 07:00 today, and stopped and got biscuits and gravy in the cafeteria... pretty good stuff. Got a coupla slices of bacon, too....

I'm almost feeling like I need to be re-trained... I was the runner today, and other people wound up doing most of my work, it seems.

It's kinda hard getting my head in the right place, and I guess that's normal.

And working with cancer patients? That's really hard. I usta be able to talk with them about Karen, and how well she was doing. Remaining silent about it is really hard, and so is knowing what lurks in their futures....

Fuck cancer. Just fuck it.

One of my co-workers had ordered Chinese take-out, and she told me that she couldn't eat it all, I was welcome to the rest... so I had sweet'n'sour chicken for lunch. She is a doll.

I really do enjoy the people that I work with, they're all wonderful people.

However, five hours of being there was quite enough, I think. When I got home I felt like I'd worked for twelve... legs and back hurting. But of course, I haven't actually worked for three weeks? Hell, I dunno, I've lost track af time... sometime in the first week, around Memorial day.

I came home about 13:00, and Jan was here and Karen was awake... I talked to her for a while, then someone else came and then Karen got a phone call from an old friend... after that, she was ready for a nap, and she did that for about an hour.

Then Andy came over, and just after he left there was a knock on the door... the guy from Apria was here to pick up the O₂ stuff that we'd got from them earlier. Hospice contracts with different people, and the guy that set that up from Hospice told me that he'd call Apria... but he didn't. I finally called them yesterday to find out what was up. It sure would be nice to be able to trust people to do what they say they're going to do, dammit.

O'well, it's a small thing, even though we will probably be charged for it some way or another.

Kim and Lacee and one of her friends are here now visiting... Karen just loves seeing everyone, especially after recently being on the brink of death twice, she puts a lot more value on her time, it seems.

She is such a wonderful woman, everyone loves her, and I love her more than anyone else ever can.

Fuck cancer. Just fuck it.