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And if we got any snow last night, it was all gone in the 40+ weather.

It was 14:00 before karen got up, and she was asleep about 21:00 last night. This last round of chemo is taking its' toll on her, in little daily bites. The first round would just knock her out for two or three days, while this one only lets her be awake for eight or ten hours.

I have not smoked since Monday. No, I haven't quit smoking... every time I do that I fuck it up. I'm just not smoking right now. It might turn out that I never smoke again... and it might not turn out that way at all.

I know what would make Karen (and everyone else that knows me) happy, though....

But you know what? I've got enough stress in my life right now that I'm not even gonna make a decision about what I want to do... I do know that I'm not gonna start again until I can actually enjoy a cigar. Right now, I know that I couldn't do that, I'm coughing badly enough without any irritants.

It's 21:30 and Karen is in bed again, but she wants to get up early tomorrow... and we can go look at cars then, I hope.

She will have her last chemo for this round next Tuesday, and then a chest x-ray later in the week, and we'll see where we stand at that time... uncharacteristically superstitious of me, I have my fingers crossed... there's nothing else to do.

Maybe I need to go to bed now, too....