So, I spent the day yesterday downloading the program I mentioned... and most of the night, too, and it's still going on. 65 five-MB files. Of course, it will be worth it, if just for the fact that I now know that I can maintain a connection for that long.
And the fact that I'm getting to know this community of... hackerz isn't the right word, but close... and finding that, philosophically, they're my kinda people. Only generally smarter than I am, about computers anyway.
Karen is upset with me about the lack of progress on the kitchen project, and I'm kinda upset with myself, too. I just seem to have no ambition in that direction... this project has lasted way too long... outlasted my enthusiasm, anyway.
All the more reason to get it over and done with, then, right?
The problem is... I'm such a self-indulgent bastard. I want to do what I want to do, and I want to do it now. I want to eat as much as I want to eat, smoke as much as I want to smoke, sleep as much as I want to sleep...
Sleep. Being short-changed on that lately. Four or five hours a day is not enough, but it's all that my head will allow me. And it's not like I have that much stuff to do... hell, I've been off a week, and I haven't done anything. It's probably the worrying about stuff that I should be doing that's getting me, and, as I mentioned before, getting the stuff done should take care of that.
Maybe, subconsciously, I'm worried that if I get everything done, I won't have anything to do? Nah, even my subconscious isn't that stupid.
Speaking of things to do... I need to get the Keirsey files updated, but I'm kinda waiting to get the new version of Access installed, and hopefully (I've heard) that there is a degree of interaction possible on files on the web using it. We'll see... the Keirsey files are getting too big to be handled the way I've been doing it, using four huge files for the different sorts. If that doesn't work out, I'm really gonna have to learn the other way of doing it that I researched a coupla weeks ago.
19:28...
Ah well, I'll get back on track now... back to work tonight. It seems to be easier to get a sleeping routine going when I'm working lately. I'm sure that this is just another phase that I'm going through.
At least I've quit snoring, according to Karen, who is the one who should know. On the other hand, I have not seen the great benefits of the C-PAP that I was hoping to see... my return to youth and general physical well-being. I think that the real answer will be a daytime job... but that will probably never happen. It seems that there are forces keeping me where I am. I'm slightly suspicious that part of the reason for that may be that I'm doing so well on nights...
I'm disappointed in the new version of MSOffice, at least the parts that I've tried out. No big changes from the old Access program, at least that I can figger out. I haven't tried anything else new from the program, except for Outlook, which does seem to have improved somewhat. I will probably go back to the old version again, since I really don't feel like buying the new one for the minimal benefits that I can see.
When I was trying to get to sleep earlier, I turned the computers off, thinking that I would rid myself of at least one distraction, and I turned the TV on. Besides the ongoing saga of recovering the bodies from the plane wreck, I watched Clinton's question and answer show. Once again, I was impressed by him. Yeah, I know that he's a sleaze-bucket and all of that, but he sure does talk well. It's good to listen to him while he's not defensive.
I guess that I'll go turn on the tube again, see if they actually recovered the bodies or if they're still just talking and speculating about it... then I'm off to work.
More tomorrow...
I spent about five hours trying to get some sleep, before finally nodding off about 15:30... then I had a real bitch of a time getting up when the alarm went off. I really hate not being able to go to sleep... I may have mentioned this before some time or another...