All Right! It's been 48 hours, two whole days! And yes, last night was hell.
There are many triggers at the hospital to set off my smoking bell. I think that I've got them all figgered out now. On the other hand, I certainly don't want to get too cocky...
I'm really wanting it to all be over... I want to be a non-smoker right now, without having to go through the next few days. I need to be patient, I do.
I did get plenty of sleep yesterday, but I'm still very very sleepy... like, all of the energy that I'm expending not smoking is making me tired. To the bone-type tired. I guess that's good, I don't think that it's depression doing that... y'know, escape from life type of thing... but I could be wrong.
I'm going to sleep anyway, whether it's depression or not, it all has the same cure...
Maybe more later. Thunderstorm right now, gotta go watch a while before I hit the sack...