First off, my abject and humble apologies to those of you who use graphics on your pages. And an explanation: I screwed up. When I first went to MSIE 3.0, it was great. Things loaded fast. Even though I really still don't like graphics that much, it didn't bother me much. Later, things started slowing down, so I blamed the first thing that came to mind... the graphics. Things slowed down gradually, so I just got more and more impatient. What was really happening was that MSIE was eating up not only all of my disk space, but my RAM too. Shutting the cache down and deleting the existing cache solved the problem. Except for the problem I have about opening my mouth before I completely think something out... but I'm working on that one too!
Karen & Kim went to KC Saturday, KC Grandma is keeping Packy and Lacee for a few days, so Kim thought that she would treat Karen for a change. So they're out carousing and gambling. I told Karen to put a $20.00 limit on her losses, I just hope that she listens to me. Above all, I don't want her to win. Gambling is something I've stayed away from since my army days, when I played a lot of poker. That's not really gambling, though, just outsmarting the other guy. I did really well playing poker... I wouldn't get drunk until I'd won, the other guys would drink and I'd take their money. I did the same with playing pool, but I felt guilty about that. I also got my face smashed a couple of times... Anyway, if Karen does win, she'll want to go back constantly, I know...
Went over & helped my buddy Joe set up his email system after work, I got him sold on Kspress, so I thought I'd better get it working right for him...
Site update update... It's happened. Among the other changes, I dumped the frames idea. I got them to work just fine with MSIE 3.0, but nobody else could see them. So they're gone. It'll also be less work for me to update, I like that part. Another advantage is that the counter will again be accurate. I've missed it on the journal page, even though I hate to admit it... really crass, or something.
That might be a premature statement... I haven't actually Done it yet, but will when I get home in the morning. Yes, I'm writing this on company time, just like some of the other working journalers. It doesn't happen very often that I get the time to even sit down. This is a weird Saturday night at the hospital. I kinda like it!
I didn't get much sleep yesterday, and I'm starting on my twelve-hour nights. Three more after tonight & I'm done for a week. Really looking forward to it! I'm going to try to get some outdoor work done, go to Gerry's wedding on Saturday and then down to Mom's for a couple of days. Then back to the grind again! How do you people get by with only two days off?
Part of an email exchange with Paul Bender. I appreciate his honesty and the fact that he took the trouble to write to me...
Me:
I would like your opinions on the site's new look....
Really really scarey... I just wiped my directory off of the server, now FTP'ing the new stuff. I hate moments like this... will it work? Am I permanently off-line? Did I really mess up? I hope I hope I hope... the curse of atheism...no one to pray to (or blame things on)...
Him:
Anyways, to the point of this part of my message...you said you thought she was trying to convert you (and others) to reassure herself of her beliefs. I don't know if I can agree with you. Yes, that could be the reason. But, knowing quite a few people like her, including several ministers, she could also be of the mindset who believes she has discovered something about our world and wants to share it with others, just like anyone else might share a treasure they had found. I don't know her reasoning for her actions....I can only guess. Just suggesting another possibility.
As for the religious lady, I did consider that option. When people find something good, they want to share. I told her that I wanted nothing to do with it, essentially, yet she persevered. This is totally illogical. You can't teach the heathens anything that the heathens don't want to learn. She reminded me a lot of my mother... loveable, but so very sure that she was right, and that I would go to hell and never get to see her in heaven. Mom and I quit arguing religion years ago... we love each other too much, and don't want to hurt each other. And she recognizes me as a hopeless case.
So, anyway, I decided to do nothing. Logic is all I have, and it is useless in the face of faith, sorry to say...